Her tiny fingers trace shapes in my palm,
little maps to lost places,
where I, still, could believe in small gods
then she stops,
looks up,
points a finger between my eyes and breathes out,
“Here.”
Her tiny fingers trace shapes in my palm,
little maps to lost places,
where I, still, could believe in small gods
then she stops,
looks up,
points a finger between my eyes and breathes out,
“Here.”
You came into the world blue,
and hands first,
a tiny clutch of fist and promise
raised to the light.
I remember you
lifted loose with
the goddess rope,
that hotline back to the big everything,
wrapped once around your neck,
the great ocean holding on too long,
not wanting to let its daughter go.
Every one has that terror moment, I know.
Your blue arrival was mine.
I remember it,
as you were lifted loose,
the doc untangling you,
the tiny mask breathing oxygen into you,
you blooming pink,
sparks kindling into perfect popping fire,
and the universe breathing out.
You, long awaited, a slow rising wave that finally broke,
you sang an ocean worth of salt and song,
as something long asleep,
and buried deep inside my chest,
cleared its cobwebbed throat.
And I remember you,
sprawled across your mumma’s chest,
with curled fingers
tapping your morse code hello,
your first filled lungs
singing out their ocean songs,
your at last opening eyes,
and the first flash of a
gentler kind of blue,
from a tiny holy ocean,
that both our hearts
swam into.